I just know it.
In looking back over the past year, it's been another one of ups and downs. My year began with the deaths of two close relatives, and then it quickly progressed to new life, specifically that of my latest daughter. I found employment, found myself in a significant way, and found out that I can manage multiple children, a job, a husband and a household. Now, if I could just regain my sanity things would be nice.
2008 gives me the opportunity to begin putting together my revised professional growth plan, and what I want to be now that I'm grown up. There is training and certification, all of which will take some time, but it's a good place to be headed. I'm finding that I'm genuinely good at what I intend to do, and I believe that others will share in this assessment as time goes on. 2008 also finds me trying to help Mr. Mac focus on where he wants to be. On the one hand, he has a job offer in another city, in a general business firm, that would be steady and reliable. On the other, we don't want to leave this place and Mr. Mac doesn't want to do general business transaction work. Do we take the bird in hand, which is nice and calm and, well, there or do we hunt for the two much more exciting and appealing ones we know are lurking in the bush? I don't know.
My kids have become my life, and I need to do something about that - I'm not saying they should be anything other than most important, but I have got to get away from them being the only thing I have - my only hobby/interest/thing I talk about (for real - it's awful). I'm losing myself, and I need to bring back my inner adventurer. Instead of following the proper path, I need to begin taking the right path for me, and trust that inherently, this path will be the right one for my family. Getting back to this place involves significant changes on my part - most importantly, I need to gain back my self confidence. From that, I believe, the rest will flow.
My tangible personal goal is to lose 30 lbs. My tangible professional goal is to undertake the training and certification that I need as my career moves forward (I have a concrete list). With those accomplished, I will be back on track for getting back to being myself. I've been pushing myself aside, or allowing myself to be pushed down, for too long now.
