Fourth of July

My family has been coming to Fripp for the Fourth of July for 15 years now. There's a golf cart parade, a big carnival, sandcastle building contests, and of course, fireworks. We spend the whole week - it started with my mom, my sister, my dad and me. Then we added J, and after a while, Mr. Mac and Miss M. Last year, M&M and Miss Baby came into the fold. Next year, we have the littlest boy coming. And who knows after that.

There are a lot of memories here. I have had several 'life meaning' talks with my dad. He has seen to it that I've divested myself (or intended to divest myself) of some rather useless boys. We've talked about life and what it has to offer on many occasions. I've fished (and caught fish sometimes, too!), I've worked here, I've done all sorts of fun things on the beach.

Last year, I listened to my husband cry to me over the phone after his dad died. A year ago today. I found flights for his sister and for him to get to his mother as quickly as possible. Then, I packed up my kids, left them here with my mom, and went to NC myself. I was planning a funeral this time last year. Now, I'm planning a whole new life for my family.

It seems to me that this day, this time of year, is more about new beginnings than any other in the year. The Summber brings change - maybe it's the academic calendar I followed for so long. But it brings about growth and a new perspective.

After this week, this house, with all of its memories and good times, will be torn down. Gone for good. In its place is a much better place with space for babies and kids and grownups. And FINALLY a decent kitchen. I'm a little sad about this house going away, but at the same time, I'm glad it's being replaced with just what my mother wants.

In the end the 4th of July is, well, my new year. I have generally made more signficant resolutions and more meaningful changes after this week than I do at the new year. I'm thinking about this year.... but I think it's really already in front of me - just to get started out in our new home as good as I possibly can.

Vacation. And renewal. Independence. What a time.